In your search for meaning so often the Cause of what seems to be happening to you is over looked. A Course In Miracles is the application of bring Cause and effect together in your mind so the healing can occur where the mistake has happened.
“It is your thoughts alone that cause you pain. Nothing external to your mind can hurt or injure you in any way. There is no cause beyond yourself that can reach down and bring oppression. No-one but yourself affects you. There is nothing in the world which has the power to make you ill or sad, or weak or frail. But it is you who have the power to dominate all things you see by merely recognizing what you are. As you perceive the harmlessness in them, they will accept your holy will as theirs. And what was seen as fearful now becomes a source of innocence and holiness.”
“My holy brothers, think of this awhile; the world you see does nothing. It has
no effects at all. It merely represents your thoughts. And it will change entirely as you elect to change your mind, and choose the joy of God as what you really want. Your Self is radiant in this holy joy, unchanged, unchanging and unchangeable forever and forever. And would you deny a little corner of your mind its own inheritance,and keep it as a hospital for pain, a sickly place where living things must come at last to die?”
“The world may seem to cause you pain. And yet the world, as causeless, has no power to cause. As an effect it cannot make effects. As an illusion it is what you will. Your idle wishes represent its pains. Your strange desires bring it evil dreams. Your thoughts of death envelop it in fear, while in your kind forgiveness does it live.”
Don’t you just love the simplicity of salvation? God is Love and you are a whole part of that Cause. This is the teaching of A Course in Miracles; you are as God Created you.