With Easter right upon us it may behoove you to look at what it is that is really stopping you from accepting your own resurrection.
“You may wonder why it is so crucial that you look upon your hatred, and realize its full extent. And you may think that it would be easy enough for the Holy Spirit to show it to you, and dispel it, WITHOUT the need for you to raise it to awareness yourself. But there is one more complication which you have interposed between yourself and the Atonement, that you do not yet realize. We have said that no one will countenance fear, IF HE RECOGNIZES IT. But in your disordered state, YOU ARE NOT AFRAID OF FEAR. You do not LIKE it, but it is NOT your desire to attack which really frightens you. You are not seriously disturbed by your hostility. You keep it hidden because you are MORE afraid of what it covers.
You could look even upon the ego’s darkest cornerstone WITHOUT fear, if you did not believe that, WITHOUTTHE EGO, you would find, within yourself, something you fear even more. YOU ARE NOT AFRAID OF CRUCIFIXION. Your real terror is of REDEMPTION.Under the ego’s dark foundation is the memory of God, and it is of THIS that you are really afraid. For this memory would INSTANTLY restore you to your proper place, and it is THIS place that you have sought to LEAVE.”
Holy cow!!! You’ve been trying to escape from Reality by pretending to be a body in time and space. That’s nuts! You really believe that God is going to punish you. You will constantly try to justify this place in an attempt to keep God or Reality at bay. It cannot possible succeed but because you think you can you need mind training.
Until you look very closely at what it is you value here, you will maintain your own littleness, struggle to exist, get old, sick then die. Your afraid of Love for crying out loud! Hopefully that’s starting to seem absurd to you, seeing as Love is what you are and what God is.
Perhaps it’s simply time, time to accept your resurrection and come on Home.